I'm Mfing Awesome, Yo!

I have been seriously trying to navigate the dating world for about a year and a half now. Basically that is when I stopped diddling around. No more casual meh dating. I have realized some things recently. The biggest thing I have realized is: we are ALL damaged, yet everyone seems to want someone that is NOT. It's not exactly a bad thing to be damaged. Our experiences have molded who we are, good and bad. Think about it. There is not one person dating in their 30s or 40s (as I soon will be), that has not had at least one bad relationship experience. Some of these people are still carrying that baggage around and probably should not be dating. But, for the rest of us we just have scars and a list of shit we will not put up with anymore. This means that as you are dating, the other person will more than likely cause an emotional responses in you due to your previous experiences. This is NOT living in the past. This is called an emotional response to damage that you may or may no...

I. am. LONELY. There! I have said it. What would be your response if I said it to you directly? You would be amazed at how others may feel about this statement. I have found that it is a very misunderstood ideal. I decided to try to understand it better myself through reflection and share my feelings on the subject...my feelings on my feeling of loneliness.  walkingtimes.com

      If you didn't already know this about me, I am an early riser. Even on New Years morning, I was awake by 6am after not getting home until 3am. I have a routine for the most part. Part of that routine includes opening my phone and mindlessly deleting emails and scrolling through Facebook.       You may also know that I am a bit of a neat freak...or maybe you don't. My apps are sorted on my phone and none of them keep that number in the corner, this includes text messages at 6am. So, if you were to send me texts after I hit the sheets, say at 915pm, you are going to get a text reply from me at 6am.