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My Thoughts - Being Happy Where You Are When You Want More

I admit it! I am a huge High School Musical fan. I can totally relate to Sharpay with her "I want more!" attitude.


In my head, I constantly think things like:
"It would be really nice to have couch surfing buddy."
"I want to feel valued and challenged at work"
"A larger paycheck would be great."
"I really want to go on a trip."

On a weekly basis, I hear things like:
"Why are you still single?"
"Don't you want a newer car?"
"Why are you in THAT job? You are capable of so much more."
"Why don't you travel?"

As of the last few years, I have struggled with being happy with what I have. Maybe one day, "it" will be enough; who knows? However, when well intentioned people share their thoughts with where I am at in life, coupled with my own thoughts of wanting more, it is just a recipe for discontentment. I am a problem solver, so I spiral into a frantic "I gotta fix this" mindset. What is really interesting is a lot of this is out of my control, which causes me such anxiety. If you look at what I want in life, it all centers around finding (or bumping into) another person that I want and wants me or finding a new and improved job.

Dating and job hunting is exhausting and full of rejection. It is important for people to feel wanted, valued, and accepted. Therefore, when you put yourself out there for others to make that decision about you, it can have a lasting impact on your mental health. Some rejection can even cause feelings of grief. In my experience, grief is one of the most difficult feelings to handle, process, and overcome. I have also been looking into how our emotional situations affect the physical body. Rejection can cause physical responses like lowering your IQ and our ability to reason. I feel that the amount of rejection in the arena of career and relationships over the last few years has caused me to be so much more sensitive to lower level rejection like cancelled plans, unreturned texts/calls, etc. Usually, its the quality (or scale) of something that matters, but I believe in some instances, quantity can have a real impact on a person.

(I found this article on rejection interesting)

So, what is a girl to do when she wants it all and does not have it? I honestly have no clue. I do not want to stop trying, but I do wonder if I will ever reach my limit of rejection and lose my shit for real. So here I sit debating on if I should keep putting myself out there or if I should try just being happy where I am in life and hope I do not miss out on an amazing opportunity. I found a couple of articles with some suggestions (below) that I may try. I am in search of contentment with a sprinkling of happy. I believe it is possible for me to get there.

How To Be Happier With What You Have
How To Be Happy With What You Have And Stop Wanting More
Be Happy Now





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