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One Step Closer

A lot of people have decided that I took a few steps back. I disagree.

I was recently terminated from my job...that is the nice way HR says:

It has been surprising to most that I am not terrified or ashamed. I will say that I felt betrayed and my feelings were hurt. But, I was not surprised by any means. Do not get too excited if you are looking for the juicy details of what went down. I am not going there.

It took me all of about two hours to get over my hurt feelings-this comprised of cleaning out my office, turning over projects, and driving home. I was quite confused by this. But, I took a matter of fact approach to the situation. I started researching my rights and thinking about my next move. As I reflected and researched, I reminded myself:

  • the position was not a good fit for me
  • super successful people have often attributed their success to being fired
  • I have always come back bigger and better each time I am knocked down
  • BONUS: I have a new story for my resilience classes

During the moments that I did share my plight with people, I was actually kind of happy about the situation. In my mind, I would picture myself being interviewed [after reaching super star status], telling THIS story. I know! A little premature for sure but, this is how it went down for me.

Since then, it has been a challenge to stand tall in my defeat-to not desperately take another "not good fit" position just because I am scared. I remember telling everyone that questioned my decision to move to Texas, without a solid plan:
I have to go. Who I am meant to be is on the other side of this. If I do not go, I will not be that person. 
I have only been on this path for eight months. This was my first detour with a kick in the pants to get back on the "right" road. In these eight months, I have learned so much about myself. I have also seen how much I have grown as a person and continue to grow. This experience has taught me that sometimes people do not consider the harshest of consequences for their actions before making a choice-including myself. I am focusing on being more mindful of my decisions.

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