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Edward Lewis: “what’s your name?” Vivian: “what do you want it to be?” – Pretty Woman dailymail.co.uk Why would I even start a post like that?! Because, this is what most of my life reminds me of. I spent a large part of my life being what everyone else expected or wanted me to be. Of course, keeping up a charade can be difficult, so I would be rebellious every now and again. This did not go over well. Why would it? I am not behaving as expected. Pretending for so long led me to not even knowing who I am. I was a shell of a human being just going through the motions.

gurl.com Towards the end of last year I decided to start taking dating seriously. I was fed up with not having my needs met. I started evaluating why things were not going as well as I wanted them to. I enlisted the help of a friend…well he decided he was going to keep  me from making the same mistakes I always have because he said I deserve way more than I have gotten in the past. Since then I have not had a frivolous encounter, have either cut off or friend zoned dudes that were not meeting my needs, and have not been on a date because every dude wants to “just have fun.”

www.onsizzle.com As I navigate this online dating thing of which I am taking a bit more seriously this time around, I have noticed that standards seem to be expected to be lower in this online world than in real life. I would like to dive into this phenomenon and examine it.

My ex and I separated in April of 2014. I did not realize at the time how hard dating would end up being. I am not sure if it is because of my age or because times have changed so much since I was last single. I attempted this dating thing a few times since then and they were epic fails. I took some time off, first because I was exhausted and frustrated, and second because I felt like I needed a plan. That break lasted about 6 months and I am back at it again. onesizzle,com

The problem is not that there are problems. The problem is expecting otherwise and thinking that having problems is the problem. - Theodore Rubin mmmmm....coffee is NEVER a problem! Yep! My love of quotes is back on my blog! :) I really like that quote, not because I need it for myself, but because I have had some run-ins with people who were frustrated with my problematic life.  Where do I begin...

It has been almost one year since my last blog post. I have been on a long journey since that day and I could not bring myself to write during that time. I am ready to write again. My last post was about me taking care of myself, specifically through physical fitness and relationships. I will talk about my fitness journey in this post because, honestly, it is just easier.

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection – Buddha Day 1 of Couch to 5K